~You Know Who You Are~
Miss Head,
There’ve been some things I just don’t say, and I’m sure you know that.
I love how wonderful you are to me. You nearly always know what to say to me, and exactly what mood to set for the conversation. You always know the perfect times to goof off, and the perfect times to be totally serious with me.
I love how open and honest you are with me, even if it might not be the most popular or nicest thing you could say, or if it might bring conflict.
I absolutely adore that you’ve never given up on me, even when I’ve dragged you down with me, and how you constantly use pictures and videos and songs to communicate with me.
ANYWAY.
From day one, I KNEW you were special. I don’t remember just how we started talking, but I know that I treated you the same as everyone else until we started communicating via facebook.
When that new form of communication began, I was not in a good place in my life, and I tried to push you away, but you never gave in and let me drift too far. You were always that driftwood for me, and I didn’t really think anything of it until I made a very large confession to you.
As you know, you commented that that information was “disgusting”, but you never swayed from my side, regardless of how little you knew me at that point.
This was when I realised just how important you would be to me, and I tried to treat you more special than I did everyone else, because you WERE special to me.
At first, I sort of slipped a lot, but any time I needed you, you were there, and that’s stuck with me to this day: any time I need to share something, talk, lean on someone, be mushy, ANYTHING, you’re right there for me.
I love being able to hear about your life and the things you do, and being able to watch you grow up and mature and everything, and you’ve only become even more beautiful to me as you have.
I won’t go into specifically the way I feel about you, but I want you to stay in my life, for as long as you can, and, if possible, as long as I’m alive.
I don’t want to see you upset, but I know it’s inevitable, and I hope you’re here when you do get upset, because then, I can hold you in my arms and kiss away the tears.
